The month of December has been a hectic month for as long as I can remember, everything last minute, stress until it's finally over and one can breathe a sigh of relief. All I want to do is skip straight to January 1st and start my year focusing on code as graphics take a back seat, lately I have been torn in every direction without enough energy to do it all. I make and sell furniture on the side and orders for this month are on fire and out of nowhere, at a certain point of the day my battery runs low and I hit a wall. I love you December but I'm longing for January.
Finding out what you want to do with your life can take half your life. The very question "what do you want to do with your life?" can be hard to answer. All I can say is you have to try, have to fight to answer that question for yourself, otherwise your lost in the woods. We all start out doing things we don't want to do just to get by, but getting by and having money to by junk you don't need can be an endless cycle. Don't be afraid to freak out, break the rules and leave everything you don't truly want behind in the dust, time is precious, never be afraid to walk out into the cold alone and naked, you are resourceful beyond your own understanding, trust yourself, you will be okay. If you want to make games, start making games! expect them to suck in the beginning, they will. You only need to improve 1% everyday, it's possible.